2am Thoughts
I used to wish weird things on myself when I was younger.
I wanted glasses (I tried to spoil my eyesight on many occasions), I wanted to be asthmatic 🤦🏾♀️
But it was because I felt people that had all these things were special, I wanted to be special too.
I figured since others were at their beck and call, I felt that maybe if I was sick too I'd get the attention they were getting.
I'd have a lot to friends who will help me when I'm about to faint😅, seniors will not let me do any work and I'd be everyone's favourite.
Now that I think of it, it saddens me. What happened to my self esteem that I wished to be sick just so I could have friends and feel loved.
This blog post isn't taking the direction I wanted it to go. It was supposed to be a funny story but there's nothing funny about a 10 year old wishing to be sick.
Maybe I'm thinking too deeply about this. Let me know in the comment section if you ever had weird thoughts like this as a child, I'd love to hear your story.
I don't think I can remember any, but certainly as an adult now- sometimes I wish I can go back to that stage in life. It was mostly fun!
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